Today you have been gone 10 days, 1 hour, 12 minutes and 45 seconds. It still seems so unreal. I keep expecting to hear your voice, to see your smile. Today I got your death certificate and the copies of your obituary, but it still doesn't seem real.
I filled the bird feeders and sat down to enjoy them. No birds came. It's just as well because your seat was empty. I cried. I needed to talk to someone, so I called Lori. She diverted my thoughts. It was a temporary fix.
Now it is time for bed, but you are not here. The bed we shared for 41+ years is missing someone...you. So, I will take two tylenol pm's and an anxiety pill and I will hopefully sleep through the night and through the sorrow of missing you.
I love and miss you, Babe!
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| The gray clouds are a reflection of the gray I felt in my heart this evening. |
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| An empty chair. |
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| No birds came. |
Even though I was extremely sad tonight, there is hope in the Lord! "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Vicky... I can not imagine your pain or your loneliness. I truly have nothing to offer except my prayers and a shoulder ... for you to cry on, lean on, or to enclose you in a hug (even if it may be a virtual one!). Thank you for sharing your journey, for your openness and transparency!
ReplyDeleteDear Vicky, I can't imagine what you are going through. I pray for you and that God to help fill the emptiness as only He can. I am a few hundred miles away, but I am here for you. God bless you and to give you the strength to go on.
ReplyDeleteLove ya, Cheryl