All Is Well, But I'm Not Feeling It

From today's journaling:

As I pack up to leave Jessica's in the morning I am weepy. 

Thank You, Lord, for Kleenex!

I think it is the "unsettled" feeling creeping in.  I feel like a weary nomad with no place to call home (even though, really, I am blessed to be able to call several places "HOME").  I pack up your pictures to take to the next temporary dwelling, but that doesn't help the emptiness I feel without you by my side.  Even the little framed sign I have on my desk doesn't seem to help today, "Wherever I am God is and all is well."  And it should be, and normally is, so why not today?  Because right now I don't need a picture of you.  I need you!  I don't need a sign, I need a flesh and blood hug from my lover, my best friend.  I need another passionate kiss from your lips.  Today, I need you here by my side telling me, "All is well."  And for you it is.  And I'm glad, but I'm sad.

Help me, heavenly Father, to feel the assurance I know to be true from Your Word.  The assurance of the promise that You will never leave me nor forsake me.  The assurance of a permanent home, even though any home here on this side of heaven is only temporary!  Help me to feel "settled" even while staying here or there or wherever my head lies down at night.  Thank You for the love of family and friends who are trying to help me to feel "settled" in this new life I must live now without the love of my life, my best friend in this world, my sweet Tim.

I was in a little better frame of mind tonight.  Jessica and Terry took me out to eat at Rome 116, a Christian restaurant.  The Rome 116 stands for Romans 1:16 which says, "For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek."  After eating, we went back to the house and played games all evening.  The kids even got to stay up a little longer than usual.

This was one of the wall arts that were in the restaurant.

I went outside to capture the gorgeous sunset.

Thank you, Jessica and Terry, for the meal!

Uno, one of the three games we played tonight.

Poor mom got served more "dirt" than I have ever seen in one hand before!

Last but not least, playing ping pong with Michael.  He started out hot and beat 3 games in a row playing Jessica and me.  But, I came back and won the last 3.  He had his chest puffed out after those first 3 games.  We told him that his pride would come before his fall.

Thank you, Terry, for opening your home to me.  It means the world to me!  Thank you, Jessica, for your wonderful company throughout the month!  I have loved spending time with you!  All of you!  I will miss being with you, but I'm ready to get back home and get busy in the Lord's work again with our church family!  I love you so much!  Already looking forward to more adventures with you and your family!

Elisabeth, ready or not, here I come!  :D